Mustiness
Seated on the front-porch steps at Rowan Oak,
This humid, cricket-sibilant noon,
I, sole owner and proprietor,
For transitory moments, of this shaded solitude,
Inhale the scent of sentinel cedars
Failing to mask the mustiness that the house emits —
Decay's transliteration of desolation.
Here, I'm at peace with my demons and his,
Though I'm a mere visitor to his lingering presence.
Once, in deep, availing humbleness,
I'd travel, three, four, six times a year,
To check on his estate and mine,
Define my mind's location, by his,
Rely on his stars, to triangulate my fate.
Not a solitary adventitious sound or shadow
Disturbs my meditation.
There's nothing discernably distracting,
Nothing save for the disquieting realization
That I've already outlived William's years, by three,
And that the death-breath I've been smelling
Could, as easily, be my own.
07/20/08 - (2)
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