A Calm
This chilly Wednesday morning,
When I should be feeling exceedingly alone, forlorn,
For having cast off moorings, in my tiny skiff,
Set out, on an ocean of perilous loneliness,
Without so much as a heading, let alone a destination,
A calm has enveloped my psyche and my soul.
Barely a trace of agitation trembles me.
I seem to possess equanimity,
Not a come-what-may carefreeness, not resignation,
But an acceptance of something better to come,
Almost relief, despite the formidable unknown
Leering directly into my face,
Like a monster breaching from a medieval map's sea,
Warning explorers to pay heed —
Indeed, an easing of my breathing, a slowing of my heart.
Perhaps this vacuum in which I find myself adrift
Isn't as precipitous, dizzying, disorienting as I anticipated
Because the emptiness accompanying it
(Having been with me for the last three years, at least)
Is now buoying my spirit.
10/29/08 - (1)
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