The Pattern
This disconsolate night,
I'm fading back into the pattern of my shadow's anonymity,
Withdrawing into its dreary crevasse —
A rift crowded with human ash —
Disappearing into the death of my very presence.
The freefalling feeling of being totally alone,
So alone that I don't even recognize my voice, my shape,
Is a sensation I've not known, for seven decades.
It's dreadful when solitude hovers over you,
Like a buzzard circling on a spectral thermal,
And you can see that you've already gone over the edge,
Succumbed to time's talons, beak,
Been sucked earthward, crashed into a ravine,
That ineradicable gash history has named Babi Yar,
In which your nameless shadow hasn't even a past.
11/15/08 - (2)
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